since I started the blog! I didn’t even realize. During a conversation today with sweet Joanne (friends and dietitians rule!), she mentioned following my posts and I abruptly realized I haven’t made any lately. I’m pretty sure Dianne (school friends and GodMom’s rule!) said the same thing.
The loss of our mother continues to break against me like waves in the ocean or a shore. We’re all fine; we saw the storm coming and knew its precise path. So much advance notice. So much time to prepare. The loss still hurts. I’m grateful Mom expressed the desire to be cremated so I could take a “pause” emotionally and finish out my first school year of primary teaching.
Okay, let’s do a “me” and switch to the good stuff. Revamping the blog is still on my list - way overdue. I’m adding a tab of the photos of Pat we’re bringing to her Celebration of Life Saturday morning. She will be laid to rest in my dad’s plot, as per her wishes. I know I am sad, emotional, unwilling to let go, yada yada, but it’s time. Mom was an amazing caregiver for G. Dot and grandma’s sis, A. Ruth when they were diagnosed with Alzheimer’s disease. Pat’s example provided a road map for me and then Mom was cared for superbly for YEARS (just like Dot and Ruth). I am relieved about that. I still miss my mom.